Diazepam.

As some of you know ive been ill for a month now, solidly.
I was hoping to be okay for sundays karate championships, and i still have faith but it is deteriorating fast.

I have a huge phobia of needles and i have to have a blood test this Monday, its the first time ive ever had one since was like 1 and i dont really want to go, ive canceled it 3 times and this time and this time im finally going. I usualy pass out and cry lots and then feel bad for the rest of the day. Ive been given Diazepam and Emla creme so i wont know wtf is going on apparently =]